Alevel Results: Ready. Set. Go.

Fellaaaas. How’s everyone doing? I hope ya’ll are as awesome as always? ?
I’ve been (as usual) meaning to write something a lil’ chill, one of those chitchat session kinda thing..especially after all the recent poetry posts. Anyway, let’s start of with addressing just how monumental this week actually is. For anyone who’s unaware, I’m 18 years old which not only means I get to scream into the abyss for a driver’s license (and wait another 18 years before I get one ?) BUT I CAN ALSO, officially, say I’m done with school.

As nice as that sounds, problem is, to be proper done done..you gotta have to get through the whole getting your exam results to make it official bit ya know? And oh boy oh boy, does that sound perpetually unnerving.

*cries*
tear-induce-inator 9000.

What I’m trying to (interestingly) convey is that my A level (which fyi are the nasty high school exams by the Brits ?) results are set to be released on the 11th of August, 2016 aka Thursday aka tomorrow aka biggest moment of truth in all of space and time no kidding. Hence, I’m not even sure how to process it all. I like to think I’m a chill person. I panic, yes, of course, a lot. But I sort of get over it soon enough? Call it easily distractible or whatever. I manage to find the humour in dire situations, enough to stick with a it-is-not-the-end-of-the-world attitude and for that, surely, I’m grateful.

{side note: maybe people who don’t..perhaps they work harder so as to prevent any dire situations at all? I personally think it’s about how you use the panic and tension in any circumstance, how much you allow these negative feelings to influence you and how much you influence them. I mean, finding the balance between underestimating vs overestimating and then learning from the experience, right? let me know what you think okay? okay, end side note.}

I’ll be honest: I don’t have much to say. Wish I did. Maybe this post would’ve been more content-wise substantial then..but for now, sorry for the disappointment. However, this post can be a reminder of sorts.

To realise that results day, like any day, is basically, A DAY. Because most things, in retrospect, cease to be as scary as your good ol’ heart and brain have led you to believe, no?

Regardless of everything and anything, I hope to remember that. 

So let the storm come when it wants to,

BRACE YOSELF

I’m ready.

are you?

 

-Rizwana
p.s. goodluck to myself and everyone else in the same boat,
we’re all in this together, fellas.
❤️

Much Punctual. Very Wow.

Aye. Please find yourself some comfy sofa and a cup of english tea (or eh american coffee? o_O ) and let’s have a good ol’ chat.

How are you all doing? Everything going alright? I hope you’re all splendidly being awesome. (and if not, then ya know what they say? Keep Calm And Carry On!)

So I know I haven’t been able to post for so long now. As far as I can remember, I was never the kind to abandon this blog for more than 2 weeks (at max.), except for this time. Thus, it is a bit disappointing to set such a demotivating personal new record. But why haven’t I been a punctual blogger you ask? Well 2 reasons.

First of which was a weirdly-timed vacation. I had to go to Pakistan with the fam despite not have any official school holidays and that meant missing out on classes which in turn meant a lot of self studying or ahem lack thereof, to be more precise. Pffft, totally not surprising. XD

2nd reason was what followed my lack of preparation. Yep, you’ve guessed it: EXAMS. Wretched little things. I returned to KSA about 2 days before my first exam and I don’t want to get into too many details but exam time was a time of great panic and unspeakable terror. *shivers*

ANYWAY, all that is done with. Now, I’m on an official post-exams holiday. However, there’s still a matter that needs my attention. It’s one of those forks in life where you aren’t really very much in control of the path ahead and all you can do is DO the best you can, with what you’re provided. I will write about it only when I’ve dealt with it..so sorry for being all vague right now. I’ll explain soon. I hope. 🙄

On another note, my previous posts have mostly been random bits of poetry. It’s difficult not to write poems..? Odd, I know. There’s just something about my amateur attempts at poetry that I end up with a lot of hopefully okay poems. Wish I had a better reason but uhhh that’s all I can think of. Nonetheless, I still do miss writing longer pieces like I used to. They definitely involved a lot more thinking, phrasing and editing in general. But not to worry, I will try to get back to that format as quick as willingly as possibly (since you can’t exactly force yourself to write a certain way, I guess. not without enough practice at least!).

ALSO, HOW COULD I FORGET. It’s 2016 now. Old news, no? Much punctual. Very wow. I wish you all have a blessed new year that brings betterment for you AND your loved ones, in EVERY way. Likewise, ToW will (I pray) continue to grow in 2016. This blogging endeavour has already taught me so much and I dearly wish, with all your support, I get to learn even more.

I personally can’t help but feel a certain mixture of awe and gratitude that we actually get to start a completely NEW year. I know we kind of take it for granted like it’s no big deal but to be fortunate enough for YET another chance to do stuff, improve stuff, IS, truly wonderful. Wouldn’t you say âť“

Haha, I just noticed how much I’ve managed to blabber. Hence, without an unnecessarily long outro, that’s all for today. I’ll see you next time. Take cares.
<3

-Toto