BLOG TURNS 3.

on 24th June, 2017, Tinkerer of Words turned 3.

RUNDOWN

The last year, for the blog, hasn’t been too exciting. Although, it’s been pretty much the opposite in terms of my non-blog life. I moved to the UK last September for Uni and that meant I’ve been a terrible blogger. terrible is totally an understatement. I’ve neglected uploading new content. Which is a lot more difficult to understand since I didn’t actually stop writing or anything, in fact I kept posting bits of writings/poems to my personal Facebook instead.

Problem is, I struggle with doing what people do to get their writings noticed. I instantly lack the motivation to make an effort to kind of “advertise” yourself (advertise not in a market-y, gimmicky way, but like making real connections with people if that makes any sense…), and with having this website without the support system that the WordPress.com community at least provided, it’s been difficult. I can stare at a blank screen for hours trying to find the words but when it comes to actually uploading those found words, I’ll procrastinate with at least 6 episodes of whatever-it-is-i-am-currently-binge-watching (cough*izombie*cough). ISN’T THAT SUPER ODD?! (pls tell me, I can’t be the only one who suffers from this ah…oddness(?)).


Case in point #1, I have a whole album of DESIGNS on my Facebook, for maybe half an year, that has writings sort of illustrated or accompanied by bits of shapes etc. that are minimalistic and try to add to the words. It’s easier seen than explained. I started it as a way to improve my Illustrating skills + to find a way to merge my obsession with words and Graphics Design, as an aesthetically pleasing fusion.

And stupidly enough, I’ve not even mentioned it here on the blog. LIKE AT ALL.

Case in point #2, since moving to the UK, one of the greatest things has been the many Spoken Word poetry events. I’ve had the utmost pleasure of not only listening to some truly talented poets, but also performing in front of an audience, four times. Now, four times seems like a very small number, but for someone who’s only just watched Spoken Word on Youtube, the opportunity to stand on a stage and speak your words, has been, utterly remarkable. As a way to share my spoken word poems especially with friends and family back in Saudi Arabia, I started a SoundCloud account where for some reason I found the motivation to upload my 2 poems vs. delaying even the post I had in mind for ToW where I’d mention this. Like, I don’t even know why I found the latter so demanding.


Regardless, I want you to know I really, really, REALLY, R E A L L Y cherish this blog. I might sound a bit too cynical or maybe self-critical but Tinkerer of Words has seriously been a place of comfort for me. It’s been my home from the moment I spent weeks hunting for the right name for a blog where I’ll be free to share stuff and improve stuff. 3 years is a milestone, but now it’s onwards. I want to better this place, learn from my mistakes and perhaps make news ones to learn from later.

Because even now that I sit in lamplight, a little too sleepy too early, I can’t thank you enough for reading this.
You make this less difficult.

 

You make it a whole lot easy.

-rizwana

❤️

BLOG TURNS 2.

ah, yes. I don’t even know what to say..it’s 24th June and my blog, Tinkerer of Words, turns 2!

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That’s 2 YEARS of blogging and it’s been a fulfilling experience, to say the least. I have (and still am) trying to understand my writing..but for now, this is a milestone. One which I am incredibly grateful to ya’ll for! For the motivational words and the generous feedback, it’s all helped tremendously.

People’s interest means a lot for any (wanna-be) writer or artist or musician or whatever sort of creative, and you all, each one of you, have made this journey, less daunting. so, THANK YOU. 

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-Toto
<3

p.s. kewl stuff coming soon on ToW! stay tuned. ?

1 Year Blog Anniversary.


In the beginning,
everything seems feeble and unimportant;

not enough to matter.

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And yet one grabs on and holds onto a beginning as if it were, though feeble and unimportant, the only vine worth holding onto.

Self believe can seem no less than a planting but know this, its roots run deep, holding onto you, as if you too were the only vine worth grabbing, in that seemingly mightier forest.

 

And so it goes, content in even just the bond with your beginning.

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But slowly, yet surely, beginning grows and for the first time ever, it lifts you up, just a tad bit higher. Of course, you chuckle it away as if cautious to not let the enormity of your pride make it any heavier for your beginning. Oh you wouldn’t ever want that, not for the once feeble and unimportant.

Ergo you take a deep breathe and tell yourself to let the awe make you lighter and you close your eyes, cautious yet again to let not the sight of it vanish but instead let it sink from your vision and drizzle onto those roots, ones that run deep within you.

 

So that every once in a while, even in all the eventual growth of your beginning, you feel the awe change into the drizzle, begin to awaken the remembrance of a beginning before your beginning.

 

When your roots emerged.


For people shone and words, they gifted.

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And then it began to matter.


 

THANK YOU so much to all you wonderful people and for all your wonderful support. I can’t begin to tell you HOW much it means to me.
😀
I’m kind of really ridiculous at phrasing my appreciation…
hence, why I ended up writing a metaphorical-ish (maybe vague? ) piece instead..  
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(AND why it took me about a week to finish this post..)
But seriously, this milestone leaves me 100% awestruck.
Thank you for making it possible.  
Oh and there’s a lot more planned for the year ahead that I’m far too excited for. ToW would surely be honoured by your presence!  😉

 

Much Love,
Toto.
<3

MILESTONE.

100 FOLLOWERS.

WOW. LIKE REALLY, WOW.
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I have no idea WHAT to say.
yay for being so speechless, eh?

ANYWAYS. I just really would like to THANK YOU wonderful people, who spent ANY amount of time on this little blog of mine!

It might not seem much but trust me, IT IS.

Not completely related to the subject, but I’m reminded of this quote by the one and only, Casey Neistat, when during one of his recently started daily-vlogs (this vlog to be precise), he said:

What’s the point of having ambitions if they aren’t seemingly unattainable?

And listening to that one sentence, I was awestruck.

Now, to have reached this little milestone, you guys help me  reaffirm and strengthen the drive to go on. To attain the unattainable. So thank you for doing that.

Getting to a hundred followers has also been amazing because that means I’ve been able to meet 100 amazing people. I’m sure ya’ll agree that The Blogosphere feels like a large scale YET close-knit community. It’s just one of its kind!

HENCE, to further meet and discover and share (those are a LOT of and’s ^^’ ) more people, starting today,

I WILL BE REBLOGGING A MINIMUM OF
2 BLOGS, EVERY MONTH. 

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Handpicked by ToW.

But yeah, I guess that’s all I’ve got to say for now. Eh, thank you for flying with Tinkerer of Words and I hope to see you again?

^haha, that sounded a lot more witty in my head. ouch. sorry.
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*Now that I’ve fit enough of Doctor Who*

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With gratitude,
Toto.

“IG’S: JUST SOME LIFE THING”, PART III (A Postmortem)

ORIGINALLY WRITTEN ON MAY 22, 2014, 3 DAYS AFTER THE EXAMS HAD ENDED.  

Here it is. I can NOT believe I’m done writing this, can’t even remember how impatient I was to have this written. I so much appreciate anyone who is reading and I hope you don’t want to punch your screen once you’re done. Also because I can brag about this being a series, do make sure you read the previous parts (1 & 2), it will be twice more fun, I promise! *fingers crossed*

Imagine you’re jumping onto a train, not only ‘to’ a train but also ‘from’ a train, both of which are moving along opposite tracks in full, train speed fashion. There has come a moment where they’re aligned next to each other, closest they can possibly be and you’re programmed to jump that very instant. Is the thought of doing such an obviously life-threatening action more mind-bogging than the high frequency feelings awakened within you if and once you’ve actually accomplished such a feat? Can disbelieve possibly take so much control instead of the joy of not dying in the process?

Or maybe jumping trains can simply make you go bonkers; at least in my experience.

You see, I’ve recently had such a “jump” from one high speed track of life to another. From what was set to be my ultimate goal, for a good chunk of time, to starting anew in the list of yet more goals to check off. Long story short: The dreaded chapter of “cie exams” has come to an end and it’s time to discover new lands.

To be honest, it is saddening to know that that place that you once deemed to be extremely daunting and hard to navigate becomes simply “discovered”. Like walking through a dense forest, each footstep reminding you how bravely you traveled but by the end of it you’re hit with this much unexplained feeling of longing. The place becomes like those playground spring rockers that have just grown too small for us all.

Yet I’d still ride them in a heartbeat. Wouldn’t you?

cutesy spring rockers ftw.
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I’m also indefinably happy at this milestone (a little milestone nonetheless!). The prospect of finding new lands to witness is surely exciting and boundless. It feels wonderful to be pumped back up with this much of energy, much of which I’ll try to save up not only for these 4 months of being a total free elf but for all the new things that have now become daunting and hard to navigate.

Now you may be wondering how the previously titled “ordeal” or in simpler terms “IG’s” went along. Boring, tiring and sometimes mind wrecking? Yes. But surely nothing much frightening than any other stupid ol’ exams. There was more at stake, but in practice it was pretty usual. I suppose falling down a cliff is falling, no matter if you’re (for some idiotic reason) practicing for it or doing it the last official time. The procedure doesn’t change, only the status does so if you’re sane enough to focus on the act and not the importance of the result, well then you’ll have IG’s over with nice and easy!

I could honestly keep writing about this nonstop and it wouldn’t even be my fault. Having finished with o’levels and school has just been the jump-start to wanting to become a better writer and I’m more than ever ready to pursue this newly redefined goal with all the passion I can muster. Thank you to all the people who have accompanied me in this journey in whatever way, may the undiscovered lands enrich you with all you’ve sought for and I wish our roads cross each other’s some way or the other.

And lastly, I think I’ve come to a conclusion. I was right after all: IG’s were most definitely like being hit by a tennis-ball-shooting-machine.

But never in a million years had I ever imagined, that it would leave me smiling.

That’s all for now! I know this one was quite a long read but I do wish it was worth it 🙂 The next part will be coming sometime august, near the time of the “unspeakable day” (yes, I mean the results day  😛 ). So you’ll have to wait a while but don’t worry, I’ve got new plans which I will (like duhh) be blabbering to you all veryyy soon (stay tuned? 🙂 ). Once again thank you for actually reading this and until next time amigos!

 

– Toto

P.S. Tomorrow is the final day of the countdown,

GET READY for the 4th and LAST PART to be written before the day of the results (a.k.a THE UNSPEAKABLE DAY *rubbish title? yeah, I know 😛 *!